a wittle advice

Please, don't get involved with guys. Keep a cold heart until someone forces you to warm it up a little. And by force i mean...FORCE. I'm usually the girl who never shows feelings for any boy that I'm not sure is willing to give himself to me; in a non-possessive way. But seriously, I, for some stupid reason, thought it would be fun to do that for the first time ever and I REGRET IT. I should have kept my cute lil mouth closed and let the end of the school year ride out  but NO! I was bored with life and said "fuck it, why not admit this crush." Ever since I decided to do that, I am lowkey pissed everyday at myself for putting myself in a situation where there's another female involved :-o ( i swear im not messy) and to where I can't seem to get out of nor kind of want too. Im A MESS. I already know! Just please, pray that I make it another night without going off on someone random or "acting out" :-x ... bcuz of my rash emotions. I can't help but laugh at myself for being so passionate about a small ass situation when I've been in a lot of more serious ones that I could give a fuck about...(ghetto confused voice) wat da bizzness is?!!??!?

Signed,

A Lost Ass Female.

PS- If I can't handle this, I know I could never be some celebrity's side hoe =/.