It's to the point where I just can't find it in me to entertain ignorance any longer. I use to laugh and let it slide, but now it's just a nuisance. I begin to feel sad and just have pity for those who indulge their lives in it; but like someone wise once told me, you can't feel sorry for those who don't feel sorry for themselves.
It's like, as the end of senior year comes I can feel myself growing and changing a lot more. I'm always with the guys (I've always been like that though) because girls be on some off shit -besides my mains =), I have a zero tolerance for being treated bad, I've steered away from those who don't fit the lifestyle I desire to lead, and I simply just don't care about things that won't make my life fruitful and meaningful. I feel like I'm finally done with all my phases; the wanna-be bad girl, the TIU girl, the mean girl, the sadity girl, the goody too-shoe girl, the scary girl, etc. I'm just me now, whether it's a combination of all that or none. I know that I am on this "purity" trip, where everything I do is PURE in the eyes of God and myself annnd, it feels good. When in church, the teen church pastor use to say how simple activities that I didn't think were bad, were sinful. I use to knock Christian's and believe that they just had no fun. NO drinking, smoking, partying, etc. how did they live? But out of no-where I've been slowly cutting those things out of my life and, all be damned, I'm happier then I've ever been. I no longer wake up the next day thinking "I should have said NO!.." I am NOT perfect, I still have moments where I just want to go out and do some shit, but I'm just happy I'm finally getting back to my roots and not just talking about doing so anymore.
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