Inspiration

Disclaimer: this picture was stolen from another blog. Call me a jocker idc I liked it... =]...:-l

I think it's funny how inspiration comes from the weirdest places for me. I could be watching a hood movie and be inspired to find true love in my future and not waste my time or tell myself that I'm just going to have fun right now, with these insignificant niggas. I know I'm better then a lot of the things I subject myself too. So why do I do it?

To be honest I have no clue. Maybe it's boredom or the fact that I'm impatient and anxious or the fact that I feel like i can handle it.

But, in the end, I always find that when I sit still and put God in control of my situations, it always turns out better. It's funny how we often try to take control of situations that are out of our control and we know that they are. But somehow, we trick ourselves into thinking we can handle or fix things. No!

It is true that there are some small things we can do to put ourselves on the right path, but it seems like that isn't the cool thing to do. We are always encouraged to DO something no matter what it is. Society always tells us to DO something. And yes, I hope you're the type to take action but sometimes, just sometimes, it is imperitive to NOT do anything. Sit...and wait...and give the issue to God.

With me, I'm so back and forth with the things I want & the situations I want to handle.

I want a serious relationship but when I get one I want to be free and unrestricted.

I want to cuss out retarted females when they come or look at me wrong, but I want to present myself as a woman of God at all times.

I know the goodness and the peace that comes from following God, but I want to do earthly things.

I want to find me a husband type of guy, but I want God to bless me with the right one for me (when the time comes)

I want to be that Jay Z type of successful to where people know my name and my greatness but I want a simple, chill, joyful but exciting private life.

I want to make & spend money frivulously but I can't stand people who actually do that.

Everything I desire has is a catch 22. So what do I do?

I've learned to leave it to God. It's the only peace of mind I get when stressed. It's the purest peace of mind anyone can get...when they leave IT to God.

So I speak of inspiration...

I am inspired and motivated to have a fruitful life in the most wholesome way. I am inspired to achieve the unachievable.

And although I always laugh at how random the sources are to my momentary inspirations of doing right because of the benefits it reaps, I realize they aren't random at all. I become inspired through the messages God send to me through those RANDOM ways.

Startin to get pissed off; cuz i can't do this

She Just Wanna; By Drake & Trey Songz

So I'm jus chillin, listenin to Drake & Electrik Red right now, thinking about every aspect of my life as of today.

Lately, I've had to make a lot of hard decisions that I didn't think I'd make RIGHT NOW, but I guess there's a reason for everything. But I am happy to know that I have learned so much about myself in the span of 4 days.

Anyone who has been around me lately knows I've been on going to church and reading the bible tuff and even tried to preach to everyone else about the good word. But of course as I am on this good track and everything seems perfect, I get thrown off of it with a quickness. Like Dr. Barnett would say "the devil is a liar." It's not that I'm bad now but I can feel myself starting to put God on the back burner just a little bit and venturing off to do my own things. As much as I could be in denial about it, I know that I am. As much as I recognize what I am doing, and have full control to get back on track, I'm not sure that I want too, which I also don't want to admit. It's so true what they say in church... that people are "Christian" when it is convenient, but when it becomes the time to prove your loyalty and commitment, we flake out.

I strongly dislike fake Christians because they give us all a bad name, but I see that I am struggling with proving myself to God an myself right now. I hate the feeling!

I WANT to so bad be like, well I'm young and have the rest of my life to get things together, but I also know that God blesses those who bless him.

Although the answer seems obvious to what I should do, try convincing my flesh that it's for the best!

P.S.- if anyone thinks like my friend RICKY and thinks this has anything to do with sex or drugs...think again! Believe it or not, there are far more sins then those 2 things. =]

Just Wondering

do you ever cry & don't know why?

Bomb Routine

Those who know me know I have an obsession with dance. I can watch youtube video's for 24hours straight. It's pretty sad. Anywho, we all are growing to recognize how talented Asian dancers are (lol) i use to be jealous aha. But I found this video and fell in love. Plz watch, this routine is amazingg!

Rihanna

For any Rihanna fans like I. I admire her style and for breaking out of that tacky, Beyonce' look-a-like phase...KUDO'S TO YOU GIRLL!

She's soo cute!

Im a little obsessed... =/

Note Taking 1o1

If you're anything like me, you are terrible at note-taking from textbooks or lectures. In my attempt to make an outline for a chapter that's due tomorrow morning in class, I realized I was not making proficient progress. Anyways, here's some help...

http://www.studygs.net/booknote.htm

and click on the link for concept mapping as well...this really helped me!!!

http://www.studygs.net/mapping/

...your welcome ;-)

Out with the Old in w/ the New

It's been a while since I've took the time out to blog. So I guess I'm back now.

My summer had been pretty fun, mostly chill, but really fun. I'd have to say the highlight of my summer was my close friend Summer's birthday hotel function where EVERYONE was outta there minds turnt and then someone stole her phone and she ran across Sunset Blvd. in a body leotard with her blue panties showing (lmao) cussin niggas out...WHAT? It was one of those things where you had to be there to enjoy the full comedy of the situation.

Anyways I'm just patiently waiting for the time to pass until I am off to college. My school starts ridiculously late (Sept. 28) and I leave on the 23rd. Although I am very sure that there will be a million and one things that I'll learn to miss about L.A., I can't help but anticipate the new journey I will embark on. I will be attending Seattle Pacific University aka SPU, which is funny to me because that was not on my list at all, I was so sure that I would never go there. One, because of the weather, two, because what the hell is in Seattle besides coffee?, and three, is just seemed wack and boring. But seeing how I realized I wanted a private christian school, that isn't exclusively Christian (lol), experience for college over a public one, and they gave me great financial aid...why not? Plus, the food was bomb! I want to major in communications, MAYBE minor in Spanish..that's way up in the air, and go to grad school for business all to become a prominent figure in the film industry. I want to direct, produce, edit, or be a creative director, OR just be all of those things together. But only God knows what I will end up doing, which is why I wanted to go to a Christian school so I can be in an environment that encourages me to be better in my faith.

I have to say I am very nervous for college because this is the time where I prove to myself that I can be as great as my heart desires to be. I will be able to prove to myself that I am smart enough to make the Deans List and have a social life in college. I just want to be everything and more then my heart desires...which is A LOT!

I also have a passion and great respect for theatre. I guess I will just do a little bit of everything in college to see what my nitch is.

On to other things, one of my dearest friend's, MELISSA, is having a baby girl any day now. She is set to name her Kennedy *Marie* Lynette Prothro. Note that Marie is my middle name too so I already have big hopes for Miss Kennedy. And as much as I want to lie and say "Oh yea, Meliss named her baby's middle name after mine" I CAN'T because that was her late mother's middle name. Womp womp for me! But I can't express how proud I am of Melissa for not punking out like these other little girls and jumping to abortion, or being scared of this new journey she will take on of motherhood at the age of 18. But I have always been proud of Melissa, whether I disagreed with her actions or not, for the fact that she has always persevered in anything she put her mind to and has stayed true to herself no matter what and not being afraid to do so despite of what people thought of her, so it's nothing new.

It takes a strong woman to be ready at the drop of a dime when she learns she is pregnant. It may come as a shock, but Kennedy WAS planned. And I am so happy that she has a strong man by her side as the father whom supports her beyond 100%.

She was immediately excited and ready, which I highly commend, no matter what people have thought about her pregnancy. She's a beast =].

Thinking about our friendship through the years and our past together it has been full of GREAT high's and terrible lows, seeing how we are both strong willed and head strong. But we've always overcome even the worst of times, to realize how blessed we are to have one another in our lives. The only thing I am really sad about is how things will never be like they were when we were CRAZY, dangerously adventurous and down for anything, like we were during our 9th and 10th grade years. The going out at any hour we desired because we had no supervision at her house, stealing her sisters car before any of us had a permit, being put in the "groupie" category too many times lmao, and being kidnapped a thousand times more, will be terribly missed. Oh and I can't forget the thousand and 1 laugh attacks we've experienced to the point of not being able to breathe and things only we got...(sigh) man! Melissa taught me to always do ME and never care about what people say or think about me. (I don't think she knows that). But as time goes on, better things are to come, so as sad as I am about being done with that phase of our lives, I am happy to see where our friendship and lives takes us now because I know we will only become stronger, smarter, and more beautiful as time goes on.

The End.