Man it's about 3:27am and I have prom today. I'm jus sittin at my computer, lookin at fashion pictures, thinking about life. It's funny how time flies. I swear just yesterday I was in 8th grade thinkn I was bomb bcuz my crew was the 'popular girls' and my boyfriend was the most desired boy in my grade...or so I thought lol. Now I'm the complete opposite of that person I strived to be all through my life. I wanted to be known for dressing bomb, go out all the time, have all the friends in the world, be 'known'; basically a social lite. Now I realize or have been realized all tht is BS. All those friends=fake, going out all the time=no time to get to know who you are, known for dressing bomb=not everyone is guna think you look bomb no matter what you do. Another thing I've grown to realize is pretty obvious, but when you really come to light with it, I swear its a revelation an tht is--> NO ONE IS AS BOMB AS THEY SEEM ON FACEBOOK OR MYSPACE lmao. I promise you. Maybe every 1 out of 10 are. I only have 3 more weeks of high school and ever since I was in middle school I wanted to be in college and now it's almost here? Damnn! Today we had our senior toast and tht was the first time I shed a tear over the thought of moving on. It's the best feeling in the world when you can look at everyone you've been close too and laugh and cry because all those heated fights and bomb memories we all share and at the end of the day we all love each other, even the ppl we swore he didn't like, and love each other. I already know graduation will be a mess.
Looking back on everything I so badly wish I could go back with the knowledge and confidence I have now, but doesn't everyone? In the fall I am off to Seattle for college and I'm excited but scared. Excited because I will get to explore new territory and discover another side to myself but scared because I love it here. Who know's what life will bring, but I am ready to find out. Leaving high school is a symbol for leaving half of me
to the past and that is the scariest feeling ever. Every part of my adolescence has influenced who I will become and because of that, I am no longer disappointed in the life God has given me.
Even if I'm not close to some of these ppl now, they've all contributed a huge amount to a better me either through our positive or negative relationship. =)
NOT IN THIS ORDER BUT..
Cool Kids- Ultimate Favorite ppl Everrrrr
Mr. Ashton Edward Smith lol- old best homie
Michy- Booshie, Clean Freak, etc. knocked me to reality && VICE VERSA
Cyd- hahaha Loser, Freak, Hoe, all the above- TWIN an bomb conversationalist ily
Summer- Basically we've grown up together so muchh & have always seen what's really real.
Lacey- Wish I had a closet like hers but I loved living with her, she's my life =)
Melissa- Always a crazyy, spur of the moment, adventure.
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