I can’t help but be ridiculously excited about life and all that’s to come. I’m finally in college and already see a positive change in myself throughout my attitude, personality, and wardrobe =]. Or maybe it’s the fact that I left LA. I seriously got the change of surrounding and of people that I’ve wanted for a long time and am so excited about that. I feel so grounded.
I am now thinking about minoring in Fashion but I’m not so sure yet. My heart is all throughout the arts and I can’t help but want to dive into every portion/aspect of ARTS. Music, fashion, beauty, film, dance, visual, acting, etc. I feel like I can do it all and do anything now. I feel like it’s all so close to becoming reality. I love college…so far lol. And am always excited when growth, maturity, opportunity, and privilege is in the atmosphere.
I feel blurred because there are so many things I want and I look around and I feel like I’m spinning in the bliss of everything that seems exciting to me. I don’t know how to make it stop or even how to begin. I’m jus blurred and jaded. I change my mind everyday about how I see my future playing out but which one to choose? I woke up this morning feeling like fashion was the path for me because let’s face it, I spend all my time looking up stylish people, being greatly intrigued by and appreciating the beauty in their personal style. Yesterday, I felt like I would be the best director, yelling and shouting cut and making every vision I’ve had come to life right before my very eyes. The day before that I imagined myself in the studio next to Pharrell listening to him making beats; I don’t know exactly my position in that lol.
All of my visions included me being an extremely talented, magnetic, intelligent, diligent, stylish, one-of-a-kind, rare, successful, free spirited, woMan. And the thing is, I know I can be all of that, but how will I do that if I can’t make up my mind or find a specific path that I want to follow. I’m a little worrisome and frustrated, but at the same time trying to leave it completely to God and relax and enjoy this blessed life I wake up to every morning.
God Bless
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