Moment’s Like…

It’s moments like these;

when I sit and think about how I don’t feel like I fit.

I sit and wonder, who can I relate too, who is here just for me, who is my friend here.

It’s moments like these when;

I look up at the sky and just have 1 on 1 conversations with God

Its moments like these that;

test my faith in Him, to believe that He will take care of me in the end

It’s moments like this that;

distract me from what I’m suppose to be doing like school

It’s moments like these that;

make me hate myself for caring about these little things so much.

Maybe it’s because I know that, by the end of a life time, the most important thing is relationship & I’m scared that I’ll never have one I’m confident in

But let me not speak too soon.

Satisfaction

I hate how I always want the opposite of what I have:

-when I have long hair, I want short hair

-when I have fake nails, I want my real nails

-when I’m single I want a bf, when I have 1 I want to live freely

it just goes on & on and it’s FREAKIN annoying. Why can’t I just be subtle and happy or SATISFIED!?

God Help me

Selina Khan

Beautiful Brown

Age: 17ish

Hometown: Martinique, West Indies

How She was discovered: “Elite held a casting on my island. They chose ten girls, and I was one of them. My parents were hesitant at first, but now they appreciate that I’m getting to see the world.”

Her Favorite Feature: “My height: five feet nine and a half. Both my parents are short, so I don’t know how I turned out so tall!”

Fashion Must-Haves: “Forever 21. They always have fun things, and it’s cheap.”

Top Beauty Tip: “I have a young-looking face, so when I need to look older for castings I put on black mascara.”

Advice for Aspiring Models: “Finish school! It’s so important to get an education-you can’t model for the rest of your life.”

Seattle

Seattle is nothing how people tried to make it seem.

It is true that it is not for everyone, especially half of the shallow, pointless people I know in LA, but I love it.

I LOVE IT.

It makes me feel so free and happy.

it makes me dream and believe that those dreams can come true.

it makes the sunshine seem a thousand times more beautiful because everyday it has its moments where it peeks through the clouds and it warms you up inside and out.

it makes me feel refreshed.

it makes me realize that the world is NOT like Los Scandalous & trust me its a huge different when you realize that.

it makes me feel so bad for people who are stuck in one place.

it makes me LOVE everyone as an individual and truly have a kind heart.

Seattle Inspires Me

;because it makes me want a glamorous, peaceful, joyous, PURE life.

it makes me put on my Chill Ass Music playlist all day long and feel like I’m floating on a cloud, a natural high.

I love Seattle!

Inspiration

I think everyone wants to be someone else’s inspiration. I know I do. It kind of plays into the whole hopeless romantic part of me.

I’m in love with love.

Love, or what we know love to be, is soo inspiring. It makes you feel like your flying. Like life has so much MORE opportunity and meaning to it with love.

I feel like my life revolves around all kinds of love so that I can one day meet Love and we can be together with no other issues.

Sometimes a little ounce of Love comes your way but you’re so busy being in love with other little things that, in the future, you learn, were just momentary loves, more like LUST’S.

My idea of what Love’s personality is, inspires me. It makes me want to jump, LAUGH, spread joy, help others, nuture those whom have woes, and brighten up the world. But mostly, it makes me want to give all of my Love to someone else, whom I love.

I just haven’t found the right person. And am not looking. If it happens it does, if it doesn’t, I’ll be patient lol. Just know I’m never giving up on love. And if I never receive the kind of love I fantasize about I’ll find another outlet to let love shine.

Blurred & Jaded

I can’t help but be ridiculously excited about life and all that’s to come. I’m finally in college and already see a positive change in myself throughout my attitude, personality, and wardrobe =]. Or maybe it’s the fact that I left LA. I seriously got the change of surrounding and of people that I’ve wanted for a long time and am so excited about that. I feel so grounded.

I am now thinking about minoring in Fashion but I’m not so sure yet. My heart is all throughout the arts and I can’t help but want to dive into every portion/aspect of ARTS. Music, fashion, beauty, film, dance, visual, acting, etc. I feel like I can do it all and do anything now. I feel like it’s all so close to becoming reality. I love college…so far lol. And am always excited when growth, maturity, opportunity, and privilege is in the atmosphere.

I feel blurred because there are so many things I want and I look around and I feel like I’m spinning in the bliss of everything that seems exciting to me. I don’t know how to make it stop or even how to begin. I’m jus blurred and jaded. I change my mind everyday about how I see my future playing out but which one to choose? I woke up this morning feeling like fashion was the path for me because let’s face it, I spend all my time looking up stylish people, being greatly intrigued by and appreciating the beauty in their personal style. Yesterday, I felt like I would be the best director, yelling and shouting cut and making every vision I’ve had come to life right before my very eyes. The day before that I imagined myself in the studio next to Pharrell listening to him making beats; I don’t know exactly my position in that lol.

All of my visions included me being an extremely talented, magnetic, intelligent, diligent, stylish, one-of-a-kind, rare, successful, free spirited, woMan. And the thing is, I know I can be all of that, but how will I do that if I can’t make up my mind or find a specific path that I want to follow. I’m a little worrisome and frustrated, but at the same time trying to leave it completely to God and relax and enjoy this blessed life I wake up to every morning.

God Bless

=]

Makin Beats

I loveee talented people. It’s soo attractive and it makes my world colorful =]

I couldn’t find the one’s of Pharrell that i really wanted…i’ll keep looking.

Packing

So I’m packing my bags. Nearly done now, thank God. But it’s been too much for me. I already know when I become “big time” I will have people specifically for packing. But to help the time pass I’ve watched ‘Daddy’s Girl’s’ and ‘Honey’ lol. I just wanna be a working woman with my own condo living joyfully and happy man. I don’t like all these gliches in my pathway to that like…college. lol naw I’m kidding. I’m excited. Right now it’s like my mind is full of chaos but at the same time, it’s blank. We’ll see how this adventure goes…

til next time…

Asia.Marie.

Ps- Taylor Swift is pretty lol. Her video just came on and I just noticed that. Good girl.

Nicki Minaj Nicki Lawinski

So @ first I was guna be a Nicki Minaj hater. Because I stereotyped her for being like Lil Kim (womp) but then I watched some video’s and heard her talk and she ain’t all that but she’s madd koo. And also, I laughed because hatin is tacky & I can’t even front…she’s bomb. Not someone I personally look up too but she’s HoT!!!

 

    

Takers

So I HAD to promote this movie for the plain fact that

1. it looks like a bomb ass action film &&

2. SEVEN of my husbands are in this movie.

WHAT THE HELL…

 

 

shout out to my 7 of my husbands

_matt dillon

_paul “fine ass” walker

_idris “dark chocolate, english accent having” elba

_jay hernandez (played to locksmith in crash)…i think lol

_michael ealy

_t.i.

_chris “beat a bitch” brown

 

I cannot tell you how READY I am =]

Dark-Skinned

We live in a society that uplifts fair skin. ‘The lighter, The better’ is what society wants people to see. Well, not all of us fit that “standard". For instance, myself. I am anything but light skinned. Blessed with beautiful deep brown skin, it has not always been so easy to truly see the beauty in that and appreciate that. Especially when everything around me is saying light skinned girls with “pretty hair” are bomber & much more. But as I grew older, I stopped internalizing that status quo and began to realize that I truly am beautiful and LOVE the skin I’m in. I love every shade that ‘We’ as a people come in, but in the media and in general people tend seperate light and dark skinned black females and give the impression that ‘the lighter you are, the more beautiful you are.’ It is very true that there are countless amounts of beautiful light skinned women, but I don’t want people to forget that WE can hold it down too. :-)

 

Some of my favorite “sistahs” …

Naomi Campbell

Yaya DeCosta 

 

Tatyana Ali

Stacey Dash

 

Meagan Good 

 

Jessica White

 

Gabrielle Union 

 

Drew Sidora

Ashanti

Aaliyah

  

   etc.

There are many more and I will find them and blog them. But wait…I’m not done yet. We have to remember the bombies that I find myself drooling over on many occasions…

Usher Raymond

I can’t even look at you like that really because you look like my retarded friend, but let’s be real. I LOVE YOU. You’re fine yes. And your nose has been bashed on, on so many occasions but I always ignored that. Your so cute, fine, sexy, talented…bla bla bla. I’ve had my phases of loving you and not giving a f*$k about you but bottom line…YOU’RE A DIME.

Kobe Bryant

To be honest Kobe, when everyone was obsessed with you, I didn’t think you were shizznit. But then randomly, recently, one day, I saw you and I was like “wait, he’s kinda fine.” So then I stopped denying you and just put you on my list (even though you are a cheater .. tisk tisk) But for some reason, I know you’re a good guy. I hope! lol

Djimon Hounsou

So it took me an hour to spell your name but any who I don’t even think you’re all that fine, your just SO dark I kinda just have to love you  man. It’s a good thing ;-)

  

Ginuwine

NO! excuse me, I meant Ginu'fine’…I mean your songs were sexy as heck and you are too. Where did you go though? I guess it doesn’t matter because your still known as one of the finest RnB singers.

Tyrese Gibson

Your kinda under the radar but “JODIE” you can get it. And in Waist Deep. I got love for you, you lil chocolate thang lol.

Diddy

Puff Daddy, Puff Diddy, P. Diddy, Diddy…whatever the hell your name is. lmao. I mean I have so many things against you but the facts are that your madd successful, a complete BOSS, and a cutie!

Tyson Beckford

Tyson Tyson Tyson. You are the EPITOME of the dream “tall, dark, and handsome” fantasy guy. Your sunken in eyes, lucious lips, got me saying “ooh, shit, damnn…you’re so good!”

Taye Diggs

man I dnt even know what it is. I think its the plain fact that your chocolate and you have some bomb teeth and you can put on a Jamaican accent like it’s NOTHING!

Morris Chestnut

are you kidding me? He’s so fine. His white straight teeth to his lips…seriously what planet are you from?

Idris Elba

You’re not the typical kind of fine for me but there’s just simply SOMETHING ABOUT YOU. I mean fuck it, your bomb. Plus you were in a Tyler Perry movie lol. And you got to kiss Beyonce.

Ps- I came back to edit this blog just for him. OMGOSH he is in this new movie “Takers” and I just found out he has an english accent and only does an american accent for acting. You just went up 1,000,000 in my book.

 

Omarion

I use to make fun of you. You were just a mess back in the day. But you cut your hair (thank God) and to be real, the only reason your up here is because I was just watchin Khloe and Kourtney Take Miami and you were just so bomb on there in every way. So kudo’s to you “O”.

ps- WHAT THE HELL, to this last picture. smh. hahahaha

Chris Tucker

lmao. I’m dying that I even considered you. But let’s be real. In the first Friday and first Rush Hour, YOU COULD GET IT!! And the fact that your hilarious…YOU CAN GET IT!! But you’re lowkey old as hell now =/

Mario

Yeah, Mario! I still bump your first album too. Now I know you didn’t think I forgot about you?? =]. You can look a hot ass mess at times but I ignore it because I know your a baddie fareal. And your little acting career…let’s just say YOU’RE too PRECIOUS!

 

Nick Cannon

don’t even think about it lmao. Hell no.

Sammie

I almosttttt considered you but man I really just couldn’t do it lmao But I doo bump your first album, too, though =]

When I grow up I want to marry a fineeee, tall, dark chocolate man! Milk chocolate really…But I won’t be mad with a light skinned or white, or hell, whatever type, baddie! =]

 

okay that’s it for now. I have to pack and do chores :-/

so until next time…